Wow, have things changed since I've been on here or what!!

Jon and I are really getting excited for the wedding, only 68 more days! Yes, facebook has been giving us the countdown....how nice, huh?

We will have an apartment as of May 1st! And Jon is SO excited to be moving away from home, and starting a new phase in both of our lives!

We pretty much completed our 'marriage counseling', and then our Pastor... 
                   Pastor Mark Abraham got really sick, was in the hospital for maybe 3 weeks with an infection to the heart, until he was called to his eternal home with God on Thursday, April 17, 2008.
I will never forget this man. I really grew to like him every session we had for marriage counseling. As we read his obituary today at his funeral, I let all the tears go when I heard...
          "He always had a positive outlook on life, an infectious smile, hearty laugh and a twinkle in his eyes".
I couldn't have said it better. It was exactly TRUE. Every session we would tell jokes, he would smile so brightly, and let out a big laugh, and you would always see that twinkle. No matter what. He surely loved what he was doing.

Ever since Thursday night, I have been in shock. I STILL am in shock.
      Just when life is at its greatest and things are going right, anything can happen and it shows the true power of God our Father. He is in control at ALL times, whether we think WE are or not. He can take someone- ANYONE in an instant. God has His reasons, even when I cry out in prayer questioning WHY?
It's not only for my sinful self, but for the family whose left behind, and the congregation to mourn the loss of two fellow Pastors right after each other.

The process to find another are in our future. We will have to face it once again as our hearts ache, but continue to believe and have hope in God's Word for our church.

I feel like we just went through all this, with Jon's dad, and it only brings the pain, sorrow, and reality back. All that his family went through, and all that Jon and I went through together in the months & years after. We've grown together and experienced so much with each other. Things I never thought I would go through, it's been with him. My love, my best friend, my life.
Each day I am reminded of the life I have been given through Christ, and to live it as if it were your last.
 I have a loving family, another loving family(Jon's), the love of my life, and dear friends. I could not ask for more.

So, when you think about it...money doesn't matter, food doesn't matter, material possessions don't matter, drama doesn't matter.
      Don't get too caught up in this life because none of it really matters, it's what is beyond this life.
Eternal Life Does Matter.

I miss xanga...its good to write again.

      Writing from the , 
                                           Megan

YAY, Megan now has FAST-SPEED Internet back at her house...(it's been a very long time people).

    I am so ecstatic.

   This means I can go on-line whenever the hell I feel like it, in the company of my own home! Woohoo!

Maybe I can continue my writing that I used to do.   I loved it, and it made me feel free.

     And maybe I can stay in better contact with some of you friends!!

The Late-Night Feelings from Megan:     DO NOT CONTINUE READING...NO COMMENTS NEEDED!

-I feel so far from the people who are supposed to be so near to me. ?  Things should have gotten better by now, but somehow I feel it's gotten worse. Maybe it's just me, but I feel unwanted, used, and most of the time invisible. How can that be? Will this go on for the rest of my life? Do they even realize how they are acting or treating me? Or am I paranoid?

I want to be hugged, I want to be loved. Anyone who knows me, knows I am a very sensitive person and when something bothers me, it only gets worse. Funny thing is, they haven't even noticed, nor do they care.

I used to write on here to all hours of the night... Some nights I wouldn't go to sleep because it would already be morning! I'd write about...
                ...love, about problems, about boys, about the world.
               I miss it all.

But now I know I have it all. Jon is the one and only person I know I can be myself around and he wouldn't judge me one bit. Somehow he would still love me, what a wonderful guy!
I know some people- friends, & family are surprised we've made it this far...but in 6 or so months I am getting married to the greatest guy ever.
I'm actually surprised we haven't followed through with our plan to run away and get married! ...Bummer...I mean seriously we've been engaged for over a YEAR now.

-Honestly, I am NOT that traditional frilly/fluffy little girl who has to have a PERFECT $20,000 wedding, I'm lucky if ours amounts to $8,000. I DON'T CARE!!!
I really don't think people understand the TRUE meaning of getting married these days.
It's NOT a competition to see who has the most expensive dress, or how many people are invited. It's NOT about the food you serve, or the place you have your reception at. It's NOT about the elaborate decorations put up, or the music you play...IT'S ABOUT THE LOVE OF 2 PEOPLE BUILT UPON THE FOUNDATION OF CHRIST!

Uniting 2 people who care so much about each other that they can't be apart from each other, or stand to live so far away. Love is a feeling most people don't even know where to begin to describe it. It's more than a feeling. Words can't relate to the meaning.

Yes, I want people to witness the love I share. Yes, I want people to have fun. Yes, I want all those people who shared so many amazing moments with him and I to be there for our special day. But what is the big fuss about! Can our world get any more materialistic? It's sickening.

Can you tell I am stressed? hahaha

Ugh, damn it's been waaaaaay too long. I better go before it turns into a book! 

-----------------------------NO COMMENTS NEEDED, JUST VENTING!------------------------------

            God be with you.

                                                                -M

          HEY!

                 I'm finally back on-line again...it's been a rough and busy road my friends.

Work is stressful and I would love a different, better paying, and fun job...if anyone wants to lead me in the right direction. THANKZ!

   I got my WISDOM TEETH out last Wednesday...it was HORRIBLE. Pure torture and pain in every essence. I got Dry Socket on one side and I'm wondering if the other side doesn't have some problem with it.

The only person by my side was who other than JONATHAN!   I love you baby!

No phone calls or messages, haha But thats okay...somehow I'm still aloive at this moment.

I really wish I could eat some REAL food...Ugh.  I'm still living off of mashed potatoes, pudding, noodles, and jello.  Yum Yum...In the TUM TUM! Bllllaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!

So, I missed out on my friend's 21st Birthday, which makes me horribly sad and disappointed,   AND I missed Halloween completely.

    I HOPE EVERYONE HAD A KICK-ASS NIGHT OUT ON HALLOWEEN!
I guess there is always next year...I'm going all out people! It'll be great....I hope.

Well, I still haven't done much of the wedding plans lately being under the weather and all. Also, attending funerals this past Thursday.
R.I.P. Roger Anderson (my neighbor) and Matt Zaun (my brothers old high school friend).

Life is short, enjoy every single bit of it as you can...don't look back, but focus on the NOW! People who you think are so healthy and fit could be gone in the blink of an eye.

God has His own plan for us.

                  I love you all, God Bless

Life is good.

    Then, bad things happen...that make it not so good for awhile.

      Then, you're forced to get over it. Oh Well...

Life Goes On!

This month has been busy!

    Anyone got any job openings or ideas.......LET ME KNOW!

My camera was stolen...with all those magnificient pictures of everything that has happened in the last 4-5 months....it was devastating...but I am over it as of...NOW!

I love you all.         This place is so dead...Ugh.

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